Tag Archives: faith

Trusting the Universe is hard

So lately I haven’t been feeling too happy. There is something missing in my days. Everything is a bland routine. The weekdays come and they go, the weekends come and yes I do have some fun, and they go by as well. The days go by but really what are they made of? What do I do that is meaningful? Lately, I have been harping on things a lot. All the things that I am dissatisfied about are coming up repeatedly. I suspect it’s these things that keep me unhappy. There is not much I can do right now to fix any of these things. Drastic actions and decisions have never helped. So I am not doing any of that. But the alternative is inaction, to do nothing while everything remains unsatisfactory. I am supposed to have faith in the Universe and trust that all things will fall into place at the right time and everything will turn out OK. But I am often afraid that this may not be true and that the end result will just be that I wasted time doing nothing. Does that even make sense?

Because at this point in Life, for certain situations I am facing now (I won’t go into the gory details now), I simply do not know what the right solution is. I am not sure what the right decision is.

I also have so much resentment and frustration. There have been a couple of things that have not been working out for me for the past 3-4 years and it’s all adding up. There is a constant ever-present conflict. I strive all the time to be content but it is a constant battle. They say you can make your Life out to be the way you want it to be. It is not true. We do not have the power to influence certain circumstances. We can only change our inner attitude towards our circumstances. This is the journey I am on. To constantly fight the resentments and frustrations that nose into my thoughts.

To be honest, I admit my issues are first world problems, and those living in poverty and starvation will not be impressed by my frustrations. But that is the problem with the human ego isn’t it? When our basic needs are met, we aspire towards higher fulfilment. And the more we have, the more we want, because there is always a next level to aspire to – it never ends. I so desperately want to be content with what I have. But I feel if I don’t keep aspiring to things, I will not grow and my life will stagnate. So I feel I must keep trying… And in this process, there is so much conflict and frustration…

Strangely, after writing all this, I feel better. Nothing has changed, but I feel better about it. No wonder they say writing is good for the spirit. I need to write more!

So… On that note….

Things that make me happy
Well brewed coffee
Aromatherapy soap
Devious maids episodes – I am officially addicted
Time with friends
Getting dressed up and going out
Lazy Sunday afternoons (with Devious Maids episodes of course!)
Friends getting married!


Leave a comment

Filed under Happiness


Time is a funny thing. Most of us generally take it for granted. Yup, it’s there and it’s trudging along. We rush about checking the time at several points, trying to get our tasks done. Or sometimes, we keep checking it to see if enough has gone by yet in anticipation of something we are looking forward to. Sometimes, we simply can’t wait for large chunks of it to pass by so that we get what we want. Do we realise that Time is pretty much the only resource we can never get back once spent?


I have been thinking about how we are constantly racing with Time to get to the next thing in our lives. The next job, the next promotion, the next purchase, the next project, the next whatever… Ok, I will speak for myself then. Without quite being conscious of it, my mind constantly keeps jumping to what’s next? I wait so long for one thing to happen, then, when it has happened, I am like “What is next?!”. I suppose it is the fundamental human need to keep growing, spiritually and mentally. It is what keeps us moving forward and that is how a lot of the good inventions have come about, no doubt. But on a personal level, I think I really should remain present more, appreciate my current status more and stop obsessing about the future and my plans for it. But it is so hard! I want to know what is coming, I want to grab hold and shape the (my) future.

But recently, I have tried to let go. To do what I can in the present and let what happens, happen. I am trying to view my future as the unread portion of a novel. I don’t know what’s coming and I can’t flip to the end to read; so I will just have to live it out, won’t I? There are literally a thousand and one things that can happen in life. We are really not sure what’s coming. That’s where Faith has to step in and give us the wisdom that whatever happens, we will know how to handle it. Good or bad.

Remaining firmly in the present is the only way to stop the obsession from taking over and making you cuckoo with anxiety. If not, it will be one nasty vicious cycle of constantly thinking “What’s Next?”. We get to appreciate Time more when we remain in the present.

That said, Life is all about “What’s Next”. Because without that something, we are not moving forward. We stagnate. My point was just not to obsess about it and get too caught up in achieving all your goals in a certain pre-dictated time frame. Let’s give ourselves a break, shall we?

Just because January has come around again, is no reason to get frustrated that you have undone resolutions still on the plate, or disappointed that you did not achieve certain goals. I mean you must have tried, surely, feeble attempts all inclusive. So continue your efforts, keep going for whatever it is that you want. With enough Faith and work on your part, what is meant to be will happen in its Own Time! The Universe’s concept of Time is vastly different from ours and the thing is, the Universe is in charge of this thing called Time; not us, unfortunately. I am a great believer in the saying “Everything has its Time and place”. I just have trouble keeping that in mind!

With Patience, Faith and Diligence, your Life will unfold in all its wonderful flaws and beauty, just the way it’s supposed to. Because, you see, in the end, it will all have worked out fine. You just didn’t know it back then.

Our job, therefore, is to enjoy the present, have faith in the future and not fret about the past.

Happy 2015…


Filed under Life is Awesome

A little bit o’Inspiration


Just thought I will quietly sneak back into my blog space with a bit of inspiration for everyone. I myself have not been greatly inspired recently to write much (told myself everyone else on WordPress is doing a fine job of it; let’s stick to reading). However, I have shamed myself into getting some writing done (what is the use of having a blog otherwise?!). 2015 is coming along and I reckon I should do something to inspire myself and others into having a better attitude all around about stuff.

Soooo… to start off on a rather-cynical-but-still-optimistic note, 2015 may not start off or pan out the way we all want, but that does not mean Life is bad. There will be good stuff and not-so-great stuff, but nevertheless it’s the stuff of Life and we just gotta roll along with the punches, ya know… Mainly, I am trying to convince myself, actually. 2014 has been better than 2013 and waaay better than 2012 – I will admit that much. So looking at the trend, I’d say things are looking up… Anyway I am not going to get ahead of myself – the ONLY resolution I have is to maintain an attitude of Gratefulness no matter what happens. Easier said than done, trust me. We will see how that goes… More on that next year, folks!

Happy New Year, fellow bloggers and readers! I wish all of you the very best of years and the strength and wisdom to take it all on.

1 Comment

Filed under Life is Awesome